Post by Kennedy Matthews on Aug 14, 2022 20:33:16 GMT -5
3 Months Ago
My eyes shot open as the nurse lumbered over me. She smiled from ear to ear from beneath her surgical mask.
”Today is the day Miss Matthews. You are finally getting to go home. After six months of being here you are heading out into the real world. We are sending you with some recommendations. We really think it is time for you to retire from wrestling as it seems to be the root of your psychosis.”
Present Day
Those final words echoed in my head as I sat in my hotel room in Detroit, Michigan. Psychosis is a multileveled trigger for me. I didn’t see myself as psychotic. I really felt as if I was wrongfully put in that hell by my ex best friend, Estrella Luiz, because she didn’t want to be my friend anymore. I sat up as I looked over at my phone. For years I would wake up to text messages from Estrella, my mum, Lissie Hope, and Geri Vayden. Now my phone lay dry, no one checking in on me. It is kind of funny how life shits on us. How life goes from great to nothing all at once.
I used to be the Queen of Wrestling. I was a top tier talent in WCF and Action Wrestling after a seven year hiatus. I hadn’t missed a step. I ended the undefeated streak of Kurt Navarro. I feuded with Teo Blaze and he and I single handedly kept the WCF relevant. Week in and week out our segments and matches were highly rated and highly praised. Offers from bigger and better promotions came in.
I decided it was time to jump to Action Wrestling, to this day they are some of the best wrestling in the world. I came in and instantly made an impact causing Anton Chase a lot of strife. I was going to end his career until he tucked tail and ran. Estrella Luiz, my best friend, followed me and we took Action Wrestling by storm. I quickly became the Television Champion and that is when it dawned on me and my cockiness took over. I turned the Television Title in and said it was below me. At the time I believed it was. Did I make a mistake? Not at all. Was I in over my head? To this day I still don’t think so.
April 2019, Evolution, the biggest pay per view event of the year is when I would solidify myself as a top star… or so I thought. Geri Vayden (then Geri Miller), Lissie Hope, Estrella, and myself formed the Royal Family. One of the most hot and cold, bi polar team of bitches wrestling had ever seen. Myself, the Queen. Estrella, the Princess. Lissie, the Duchess of Debauchery. Geri, the Goddess of Ganja. You see we had a hierarchy and that was the way things had to be. That was until Lissie decided she was bigger than us and preyed on Estrella’s innocence. She caused a rift between me and Estrella, essentially making her choose between Lissie and myself. I could hear my psychiatrist, Dr. Minh, at the back of my head at our last appointment.
One Week Earlier
Dr. Minh, the tiny asian lady who had been assigned to my advanced case of crazy, looked at me as I laid on the couch. She smiled from ear to ear as she spoke softly.
”Miss Matthews. Your file states that your mental state is attributed to extreme loss. Let us begin there. What have you lost?”
I rolled my eyes as I responded in anger, my British accent showing more.
”Look Doc, I don’t even know why I am here. I was at my best and then the docs recommended I stay on this path. I am not even sure honestly why they think I am crazy. It is Lissie Hope who should be explaining things. She stole my best friend when I needed her the most.”
Dr. Minh scribbled in her notepad. She, then, placed it down and spoke to me.
”Miss Matthews, we cannot go on in life blaming others for things we cannot control. We can only accept that maybe we can be problematic too.”
I cut her off. I wasn’t going to listen to this again.
”I am not at fault. I won’t continue being told all of my faults. I am going to prove everyone wrong when it comes to my strengths. I am going to show that I am not any more crazy than anyone. I am going to get back into what I love and make sure that my name is remembered as the legend I truly am.”
Present Day
I was finally up and about as I looked around the shoddy hotel room that Level Up had put me in. Once again they weren’t taking me seriously. I made some coffee as I sat at the desk. I set my phone up as I went live on Instagram. I waited for a few thousand followers to watch as I began to speak.
”Hello to each and every fan and hater watching this. That includes you Eli Goode. I know you will be hanging on every word coming from my perfect lips, won’t ya? Fact of the matter is this, I am wrestling royalty but, beyond that, I am a champion. I will be champion again soon. It is just a matter of time before my talents are recognized again. I didn’t become Kingdom Come World Champion, Grindhouse Wrestling Champion, WCF TV Champion, and Action Wrestling TV Champion by not being top flight at what I do. You see for years my talent has been pushed aside for idiots like you and I will not stand for it anymore.”
I stood up and walked around the room. I opened the curtains as I let the sunshine in.
”While I was locked away I did some thinking. I don’t wanna be the prissy Queen anymore. I am the PsyQueen. I have my issues within my own head, we all do. It isn’t our issues that define us but, rather, it is how we react to our issues. Do we sit idly by and watch life go by or do we grab the bull by the horns and hold on for dear life? Life, love, and the pursuit of happiness is why we are put on this Earth. We are here to make an impact. What impact will you be remembered for, Mr. Goode? Do you want to be remembered as a lower tier champion meanwhile people like Duncan Shepard ascend to the top? Do you want to be remembered as the coffee or the cream? Anyone can be coffee. It takes a special person to rise to the top. I will not become coffee and allow you to ascend more. I am here to make a difference and to show Level Up what they have been missing. It isn’t often you find a twenty eight year old like me who has ten years experience in this business. Eli, what do you offer this company that they haven’t already seen? What makes you stand out?
I am someone who can end or extend your career. I am someone who can help you all you have to do, Mr. Goode, is bow at my feet. Pledge your loyalty to me and I will have you being at the top of the top in no time. You think beating Jason Ryan is impressive? If that is someone who you think will catapult you to the main event then you are severely mistaken my friend. Look, in my country, wrestling is not just a sport or a form of entertainment. It is hell on Earth. Taking lumps that no one else can get through. You are from a town in the United States where anyone can become a wrestler so I am not impressed with you. Join me Eli. Make something Goode of yourself.”
I paced a bit more as more memories came flooding back to me.
Early 2018
I sat around in my pajamas as my boyfriend, Jaice Wilds, came out from the room. He smiled warmly as I returned the favor. He sat on the couch and I decided to join him.
”Jaice, there is something we need to talk about. Nothing bad.. At least I don’t think so.”
Jaice looked as I laid in his lap, looking up at his beautifully handsome face.
”Yes my little English Muffin?”
I smirked as I blushed a bit.
”You and I have been through some stuff with Action and whatnot. There is some good news and that is.. I am…”
He looked with one eyebrow raised.
”Pregnant. I am pregnant.”
Jaice smiled as he kissed me. I was on top of the world.
Present Day
I smiled as I spoke to the camera.
"As you can see Eli, from everything I have presented you, you should feel honored to be in the ring with me. You should know that I am a little off kilter and a little spoiled. I won't take it easy on you and I don't expect you to take it easy on me. See you at EXP!"
I blew a kiss to the screen as the scene faded to black.
