Post by Deleted on May 8, 2022 22:38:38 GMT -5
The camera is on and Victoria Salinas begins to speak.
“Here’s the part where I’m supposed to cut a rather lengthy promo regarding this cheat code ladder match and trust me, I am going to get to that at some point. But right now, there’s a big elephant in the room that I am going to address and that’s basically me at this point. See, for pretty much my whole career, I’ve always prided myself on what I’ve accomplished in that ring and doing right by me more than anything. Coming into this match, the question that has been on my mind is have I been doing right by me at all since I’ve been here and the obvious answer is no. Joining the Game Changers was a stupid move on my part and I will say that non-stop until the cows come home. I’m not saying that to lament the point or to express regret. I’m not even saying that to put them down. I’m saying that because more than anything else, making that stupid decision is what ultimately sums up how WRONG everything has been since the day I arrived here. I can stick around and try to fix that damage, but then you’ve got to look at yourself in the mirror and you’ve got to wonder if the damage is too much to repair. I’ve been asking myself this question since… I’d say… the Last of Us? I’ve had my days where I’m feeling great, then I’ve had my days where I’m feeling like the worst. Needless to say, as time has gone on, the former has been diminishing while the latter has been growing. It’s a feeling that I’ve been trying to shake, but you reach a point where you’ve got to sit down and realize that you’ve got to accept the answer that is right in front of your face that you want to ignore so much.
That answer, as far as things between me and this company goes?
The damage IS too much to repair. It’s one thing if the damage has been done, but it’s a completely different thing if TOO much damage has been done and to be honest? Brutally honest… I should say. The moment I joined the Game Changers while spitting on that multiplayer title shot opportunity is the moment that things went down the drain for me here. That was the moment where the damage was done and the Last of Us and everything leading up to that might as well have been the moment the damage became too much to repair. The fact of the matter is that from day one that I’ve been here, I haven’t been ME. My own insecurities have caused the pressure of this place to bring the worst out of me. It’s truly like… this bizarre, toxic combination that creates a very bad scenario for me. Yeah, I screwed up BADLY. But who’s to say that I won’t do it again at some point? It’s not a risk I can take. I mean, to be really, REALLY honest I look at this opportunity that’s in front of me and I question if I even deserve this at all. Part of me doesn’t feel like I do. I mean, after all the awful things that I’ve partaken in here? Don’t get me wrong. I’m going to do the best that I can in this match because that’s how I was brought up in this business. I’m never the type of wrestler that just throws away everything that she was ever taught when she came up in this business and acts like it doesn’t mean anything…
Or at least that was before I even joined the Game Changers at all…
You think that doesn’t haunt me every time I have to step in a Level Up ring? Because it does. I have to live with that horrible move that I made every single day. I have to remember the horrible things I said in my promos leading up to matches. I have to live with those words as they scar my soul like a bunch of papercuts. I have to live with the fact that I DID throw it all away and as far as my credibility as a professional wrestler is concerned, at least as far as this company goes, that’s a credibility that I’m not getting back. Don’t ask me what the future holds because honest to god, I don’t even know that. I don’t even want to think about it because right now, I can’t be focusing on the future at this point. I have to be focusing on what is in front of me and I have to focus on just getting through this ladder match and getting through it to the best of my ability. Period. I’ll worry about the future once this ladder match is done and over with. For now, all I can say is ‘sorry’ until I’m blue in the face. So all else I’ve got to say at this point, other than ‘sorry’, is let’s get through this ladder match. If I win, great. If I don’t? It’s so WEIRD that I, of all people, am saying this, but it’s not the end of the world if I don’t.
As for the future? I guess we’ll just have to wait and see on that one won’t we?
Victoria shuts off the camera and the scene fades out.
“Here’s the part where I’m supposed to cut a rather lengthy promo regarding this cheat code ladder match and trust me, I am going to get to that at some point. But right now, there’s a big elephant in the room that I am going to address and that’s basically me at this point. See, for pretty much my whole career, I’ve always prided myself on what I’ve accomplished in that ring and doing right by me more than anything. Coming into this match, the question that has been on my mind is have I been doing right by me at all since I’ve been here and the obvious answer is no. Joining the Game Changers was a stupid move on my part and I will say that non-stop until the cows come home. I’m not saying that to lament the point or to express regret. I’m not even saying that to put them down. I’m saying that because more than anything else, making that stupid decision is what ultimately sums up how WRONG everything has been since the day I arrived here. I can stick around and try to fix that damage, but then you’ve got to look at yourself in the mirror and you’ve got to wonder if the damage is too much to repair. I’ve been asking myself this question since… I’d say… the Last of Us? I’ve had my days where I’m feeling great, then I’ve had my days where I’m feeling like the worst. Needless to say, as time has gone on, the former has been diminishing while the latter has been growing. It’s a feeling that I’ve been trying to shake, but you reach a point where you’ve got to sit down and realize that you’ve got to accept the answer that is right in front of your face that you want to ignore so much.
That answer, as far as things between me and this company goes?
The damage IS too much to repair. It’s one thing if the damage has been done, but it’s a completely different thing if TOO much damage has been done and to be honest? Brutally honest… I should say. The moment I joined the Game Changers while spitting on that multiplayer title shot opportunity is the moment that things went down the drain for me here. That was the moment where the damage was done and the Last of Us and everything leading up to that might as well have been the moment the damage became too much to repair. The fact of the matter is that from day one that I’ve been here, I haven’t been ME. My own insecurities have caused the pressure of this place to bring the worst out of me. It’s truly like… this bizarre, toxic combination that creates a very bad scenario for me. Yeah, I screwed up BADLY. But who’s to say that I won’t do it again at some point? It’s not a risk I can take. I mean, to be really, REALLY honest I look at this opportunity that’s in front of me and I question if I even deserve this at all. Part of me doesn’t feel like I do. I mean, after all the awful things that I’ve partaken in here? Don’t get me wrong. I’m going to do the best that I can in this match because that’s how I was brought up in this business. I’m never the type of wrestler that just throws away everything that she was ever taught when she came up in this business and acts like it doesn’t mean anything…
Or at least that was before I even joined the Game Changers at all…
You think that doesn’t haunt me every time I have to step in a Level Up ring? Because it does. I have to live with that horrible move that I made every single day. I have to remember the horrible things I said in my promos leading up to matches. I have to live with those words as they scar my soul like a bunch of papercuts. I have to live with the fact that I DID throw it all away and as far as my credibility as a professional wrestler is concerned, at least as far as this company goes, that’s a credibility that I’m not getting back. Don’t ask me what the future holds because honest to god, I don’t even know that. I don’t even want to think about it because right now, I can’t be focusing on the future at this point. I have to be focusing on what is in front of me and I have to focus on just getting through this ladder match and getting through it to the best of my ability. Period. I’ll worry about the future once this ladder match is done and over with. For now, all I can say is ‘sorry’ until I’m blue in the face. So all else I’ve got to say at this point, other than ‘sorry’, is let’s get through this ladder match. If I win, great. If I don’t? It’s so WEIRD that I, of all people, am saying this, but it’s not the end of the world if I don’t.
As for the future? I guess we’ll just have to wait and see on that one won’t we?
Victoria shuts off the camera and the scene fades out.